Poor thing

you say how sad
you say poor thing
but when it's you
it's something else
you took my body
tore it in half
you took my
childhood
my heart and
my laugh
and you did it
with a smirk on
your face
a scare so deep
it cannot heal
you say your sorry
you say poor thing
but
your words mean nothing
your dead to me now
a face in hell
The tears that i cried
My sea of sadness
i hope you drown
and feel just as scared
hopeless
and
unsure and i did
that night
you say how sad
you say poor thing

think of him

Don't think of him as gone away
his journeys just begun
life holds so many facets
the earth is only one

just think of him as resting
from the sorrows and the fears
in a place pf warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years

think how he must be wishing
what we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away

and think of him as living
in the hearts of those he touched
for nothing loved is ever lost
and he was loved so much

55 W O R D

The BIG Decision

(door shuts)
"open it up what does it say?"
"i don't know give me two seconds will ya."
"I can't believe your actually doing this"
"It's not like I really have a choice. And I mean finding out now is better than later. Right?"
"Well yeah but...Aren't ya nervous?"
"Of coarse i'm nervous, and I really have to pee so move real quick so I can get this over with."
"What does it say?"
"...Ah shit!"
"What!"
"...It's a +"
(hands her the phone)
"better call him and let him know..."

food for your thought

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I would marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn’t expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were
mine.'

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someon e who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today before you complain about life -Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children -Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive- Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank GOD you're alive and still around.

'Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.'

unspoken

To me:
that day was a haze of fog
lingering in the early midst of morning
my tears over flowed like dew
on a muggy day
the out come i remember clearly
it was complete deja vu
agony
everything i thought it would be
yet more
like the reflection of the forest
captured on the pure
unweighted water
your words cut and confused me
like the ripples you experience
when it rains
different
painful
unmercifully ripping my heart out of my chest no matter
how much I look at you with tortured eyes of what your doing
and yet
I did not fight back
even thought you tore every
ounce
of self-esteem
I ever built up
I let you
I gave up
Agonizing winds altered my autumn
to winter
dead
alone
sacrificed
but there is yet something
that consumes me
I never got to tell you
I won't give up
To this day our souls are
torn and jaded from the connection
hesitantly waiting for the
other
forever
but this day I'm certain will
never come
for you're with her
and I' alone
this game is not over
until
you are me
I am you
and
we are I

Him (fnal Copy)

his face:
my life sitting in front of me
tears burning
my heart throbbing with pain
anxiety building up
my heart beating in my throat
I wish I could reverse this moment in time
But no
I was done,
Done trying to contemplate the agony that I exposed
myself to everyday
I finally realized my spot in this twisted
bizzare
spect of wolrd in this never-ending time of
blackness
and I did it
I said good-bye to broken promises and forevers that
slipped away like the memories of the past
even if it was one that I didn't want to forget
just your way to feel more secure about yourself
Like a blanket sheltering a two year old hiding from the storm in which you call
your life
hiding away
from me
the thuder
rattlng your comfort zone forcing you to deal
Lying to the one you called your All
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
like the mountianous air
clean and untouched
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said"I love you" or
"I will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day I realized
my mother was right
She saw right through you like crystal
The reflection of your ways mimicked those of her past
Her protection fell over me
I never thought it possible
Trust being broken
My pride being torn from my chest
Labeled
Petrified
but that's life
unpredictable and mind boggling
many people always said"You'll understand when you’re older"
but that summer
That hot, heart wrenching summer
whipped away
Disappeared
Forgotten
life always taken for granted
you 'll only miss it when it's gone
unknowingly
I was strong
brave
and yet
I'm so thankful
I hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who I am now

For the day my life changed.

Him (second version)

his face
my life sitting in front of me
tears running downmy heart exploding with pain waiting to burst out of my chest
I wanted to take it all back
But no
I was done,
Done trying to contemplate the agony that I exposed myself to everyday
I finally realized I was worth it
and I did it
I said good-bye to broken promises and forever’s that never meant anything
just your way to feel more secure about yourself
Like a band-aid covering up what you knew was there but didn’t have the heart to face
Lying to the one you called your all
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said"I love you" or
"I will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day I realized
my mother was right
She saw right threw you like crystal
The reflection of your ways mimicked those of her past
Her protection fell over me
I never thought it possible
Trust being broken
My pride being torn from my chest
Labeled
Petrified
but that's life
unpredictable and mind boggling
many people always said
"You'll understand when you’re older"
but that summer
That hot, heart wrenching summer
Like a boy with sweat on his brow
Quickly whipped away
Disappeared
Forgotten
life changed in a blink of an eye
unknowingly
I was strong
brave
yet I'm so thankful
I hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who I am now

For the day my life changed.