Him (fnal Copy)

his face:
my life sitting in front of me
tears burning
my heart throbbing with pain
anxiety building up
my heart beating in my throat
I wish I could reverse this moment in time
But no
I was done,
Done trying to contemplate the agony that I exposed
myself to everyday
I finally realized my spot in this twisted
bizzare
spect of wolrd in this never-ending time of
blackness
and I did it
I said good-bye to broken promises and forevers that
slipped away like the memories of the past
even if it was one that I didn't want to forget
just your way to feel more secure about yourself
Like a blanket sheltering a two year old hiding from the storm in which you call
your life
hiding away
from me
the thuder
rattlng your comfort zone forcing you to deal
Lying to the one you called your All
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
like the mountianous air
clean and untouched
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said"I love you" or
"I will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day I realized
my mother was right
She saw right through you like crystal
The reflection of your ways mimicked those of her past
Her protection fell over me
I never thought it possible
Trust being broken
My pride being torn from my chest
Labeled
Petrified
but that's life
unpredictable and mind boggling
many people always said"You'll understand when you’re older"
but that summer
That hot, heart wrenching summer
whipped away
Disappeared
Forgotten
life always taken for granted
you 'll only miss it when it's gone
unknowingly
I was strong
brave
and yet
I'm so thankful
I hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who I am now

For the day my life changed.