you say how sad
you say poor thing
but when it's you
it's something else
you took my body
tore it in half
you took my
childhood
my heart and
my laugh
and you did it
with a smirk on
your face
a scare so deep
it cannot heal
you say your sorry
you say poor thing
but
your words mean nothing
your dead to me now
a face in hell
The tears that i cried
My sea of sadness
i hope you drown
and feel just as scared
hopeless
and
unsure and i did
that night
you say how sad
you say poor thing
Monday, March 17, 2008
think of him
Don't think of him as gone away
his journeys just begun
life holds so many facets
the earth is only one
just think of him as resting
from the sorrows and the fears
in a place pf warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years
think how he must be wishing
what we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away
and think of him as living
in the hearts of those he touched
for nothing loved is ever lost
and he was loved so much
his journeys just begun
life holds so many facets
the earth is only one
just think of him as resting
from the sorrows and the fears
in a place pf warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years
think how he must be wishing
what we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away
and think of him as living
in the hearts of those he touched
for nothing loved is ever lost
and he was loved so much
55 W O R D
The BIG Decision
(door shuts)
"open it up what does it say?"
"i don't know give me two seconds will ya."
"I can't believe your actually doing this"
"It's not like I really have a choice. And I mean finding out now is better than later. Right?"
"Well yeah but...Aren't ya nervous?"
"Of coarse i'm nervous, and I really have to pee so move real quick so I can get this over with."
"What does it say?"
"...Ah shit!"
"What!"
"...It's a +"
(hands her the phone)
"better call him and let him know..."
(door shuts)
"open it up what does it say?"
"i don't know give me two seconds will ya."
"I can't believe your actually doing this"
"It's not like I really have a choice. And I mean finding out now is better than later. Right?"
"Well yeah but...Aren't ya nervous?"
"Of coarse i'm nervous, and I really have to pee so move real quick so I can get this over with."
"What does it say?"
"...Ah shit!"
"What!"
"...It's a +"
(hands her the phone)
"better call him and let him know..."
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
food for your thought
There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I would marry you.'
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn’t expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.
Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were
mine.'
This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn’t expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.
Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were
mine.'
This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.
Life Is a Gift
Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someon e who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.
Today before you complain about life -Think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someon e who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.
Today before you complain about life -Think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children -Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive- Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank GOD you're alive and still around.
'Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.'
Before whining about the distance you drive- Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank GOD you're alive and still around.
'Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.'
unspoken
To me:
that day was a haze of fog
lingering in the early midst of morning
my tears over flowed like dew
on a muggy day
the out come i remember clearly
it was complete deja vu
agony
everything i thought it would be
yet more
like the reflection of the forest
captured on the pure
unweighted water
your words cut and confused me
like the ripples you experience
when it rains
different
painful
unmercifully ripping my heart out of my chest no matter
how much I look at you with tortured eyes of what your doing
and yet
I did not fight back
even thought you tore every
ounce
of self-esteem
I ever built up
I let you
I gave up
Agonizing winds altered my autumn
to winter
dead
alone
sacrificed
but there is yet something
that consumes me
I never got to tell you
I won't give up
To this day our souls are
torn and jaded from the connection
hesitantly waiting for the
other
forever
but this day I'm certain will
never come
for you're with her
and I' alone
this game is not over
until
you are me
I am you
and
we are I
that day was a haze of fog
lingering in the early midst of morning
my tears over flowed like dew
on a muggy day
the out come i remember clearly
it was complete deja vu
agony
everything i thought it would be
yet more
like the reflection of the forest
captured on the pure
unweighted water
your words cut and confused me
like the ripples you experience
when it rains
different
painful
unmercifully ripping my heart out of my chest no matter
how much I look at you with tortured eyes of what your doing
and yet
I did not fight back
even thought you tore every
ounce
of self-esteem
I ever built up
I let you
I gave up
Agonizing winds altered my autumn
to winter
dead
alone
sacrificed
but there is yet something
that consumes me
I never got to tell you
I won't give up
To this day our souls are
torn and jaded from the connection
hesitantly waiting for the
other
forever
but this day I'm certain will
never come
for you're with her
and I' alone
this game is not over
until
you are me
I am you
and
we are I
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Him (fnal Copy)
his face:
my life sitting in front of me
tears burning
my heart throbbing with pain
anxiety building up
my heart beating in my throat
I wish I could reverse this moment in time
But no
I was done,
Done trying to contemplate the agony that I exposed
myself to everyday
I finally realized my spot in this twisted
bizzare
spect of wolrd in this never-ending time of
blackness
and I did it
I said good-bye to broken promises and forevers that
slipped away like the memories of the past
even if it was one that I didn't want to forget
just your way to feel more secure about yourself
Like a blanket sheltering a two year old hiding from the storm in which you call
your life
hiding away
from me
the thuder
rattlng your comfort zone forcing you to deal
Lying to the one you called your All
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
like the mountianous air
clean and untouched
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said"I love you" or
"I will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day I realized
my mother was right
She saw right through you like crystal
The reflection of your ways mimicked those of her past
Her protection fell over me
I never thought it possible
Trust being broken
My pride being torn from my chest
Labeled
Petrified
but that's life
unpredictable and mind boggling
many people always said"You'll understand when you’re older"
but that summer
That hot, heart wrenching summer
whipped away
Disappeared
Forgotten
life always taken for granted
you 'll only miss it when it's gone
unknowingly
I was strong
brave
and yet
I'm so thankful
I hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who I am now
For the day my life changed.
my life sitting in front of me
tears burning
my heart throbbing with pain
anxiety building up
my heart beating in my throat
I wish I could reverse this moment in time
But no
I was done,
Done trying to contemplate the agony that I exposed
myself to everyday
I finally realized my spot in this twisted
bizzare
spect of wolrd in this never-ending time of
blackness
and I did it
I said good-bye to broken promises and forevers that
slipped away like the memories of the past
even if it was one that I didn't want to forget
just your way to feel more secure about yourself
Like a blanket sheltering a two year old hiding from the storm in which you call
your life
hiding away
from me
the thuder
rattlng your comfort zone forcing you to deal
Lying to the one you called your All
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
like the mountianous air
clean and untouched
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said"I love you" or
"I will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day I realized
my mother was right
She saw right through you like crystal
The reflection of your ways mimicked those of her past
Her protection fell over me
I never thought it possible
Trust being broken
My pride being torn from my chest
Labeled
Petrified
but that's life
unpredictable and mind boggling
many people always said"You'll understand when you’re older"
but that summer
That hot, heart wrenching summer
whipped away
Disappeared
Forgotten
life always taken for granted
you 'll only miss it when it's gone
unknowingly
I was strong
brave
and yet
I'm so thankful
I hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who I am now
For the day my life changed.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Him (second version)
his face
my life sitting in front of me
tears running downmy heart exploding with pain waiting to burst out of my chest
I wanted to take it all back
But no
I was done,
Done trying to contemplate the agony that I exposed myself to everyday
I finally realized I was worth it
and I did it
I said good-bye to broken promises and forever’s that never meant anything
just your way to feel more secure about yourself
Like a band-aid covering up what you knew was there but didn’t have the heart to face
Lying to the one you called your all
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said"I love you" or
"I will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day I realized
my mother was right
She saw right threw you like crystal
The reflection of your ways mimicked those of her past
Her protection fell over me
I never thought it possible
Trust being broken
My pride being torn from my chest
Labeled
Petrified
but that's life
unpredictable and mind boggling
many people always said
"You'll understand when you’re older"
but that summer
That hot, heart wrenching summer
Like a boy with sweat on his brow
Quickly whipped away
Disappeared
Forgotten
life changed in a blink of an eye
unknowingly
I was strong
brave
yet I'm so thankful
I hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who I am now
For the day my life changed.
my life sitting in front of me
tears running downmy heart exploding with pain waiting to burst out of my chest
I wanted to take it all back
But no
I was done,
Done trying to contemplate the agony that I exposed myself to everyday
I finally realized I was worth it
and I did it
I said good-bye to broken promises and forever’s that never meant anything
just your way to feel more secure about yourself
Like a band-aid covering up what you knew was there but didn’t have the heart to face
Lying to the one you called your all
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said"I love you" or
"I will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day I realized
my mother was right
She saw right threw you like crystal
The reflection of your ways mimicked those of her past
Her protection fell over me
I never thought it possible
Trust being broken
My pride being torn from my chest
Labeled
Petrified
but that's life
unpredictable and mind boggling
many people always said
"You'll understand when you’re older"
but that summer
That hot, heart wrenching summer
Like a boy with sweat on his brow
Quickly whipped away
Disappeared
Forgotten
life changed in a blink of an eye
unknowingly
I was strong
brave
yet I'm so thankful
I hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who I am now
For the day my life changed.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
him
his face
my life
tears running down
my heart exploding with pain waiting to burst out of my chest
I wanted to take it all back
But no
i was done
i finally realized i was worth it
and i did it
i said good-bye to broken promises and forevers that never meant anything
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said
"i love you" or
"i will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day i realized
my mother was right
i never thought it possible
or that it would ever come this quickly
but that's life
unpredictable and mind bottling
many people always said
"You'll understand when your older"
but that summer
my whole life changed and i
unknowingly
grew up very quickly
i was strong
brave
and yet i'm so thankful
i hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who i am now
for the day my life changed.
my life
tears running down
my heart exploding with pain waiting to burst out of my chest
I wanted to take it all back
But no
i was done
i finally realized i was worth it
and i did it
i said good-bye to broken promises and forevers that never meant anything
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said
"i love you" or
"i will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day i realized
my mother was right
i never thought it possible
or that it would ever come this quickly
but that's life
unpredictable and mind bottling
many people always said
"You'll understand when your older"
but that summer
my whole life changed and i
unknowingly
grew up very quickly
i was strong
brave
and yet i'm so thankful
i hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who i am now
for the day my life changed.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I Love Lucy
Scene: Lucy and Ricardo are sitting in Ricardo's basement. On the couch, two spaces away, awkward. Ricardo;s watching the football game.
Ricardo
[jumps up with excitement and yells]
YES! GO GO RUN. SCORE! WITH A TOUCH DOWN!
YES! GO GO RUN. SCORE! WITH A TOUCH DOWN!
Lucy
[sits in the corner impatiently contemplating for the right moment]
[sits in the corner impatiently contemplating for the right moment]
ummmm...Ri..
[cut off]
Ricardo
Ricardo
Shh..hold on gezz can't it wait?
Lucy
[playing withe the lose ends on a pillow]
well yeah...i mean it could but only for so long so i...well
[playing withe the lose ends on a pillow]
well yeah...i mean it could but only for so long so i...well
Ricardo
[frustrated with her constant interuptions]
[frustrated with her constant interuptions]
Damn Lucy you really have no respect for me and what i want do you?
Lucy
[making mocking faces and rolls her eyes]
[making mocking faces and rolls her eyes]
whateve, you want something to drink?
Ricardo
[looks towards her with a nod]
Lucy
[thinks to herself]
[looks towards her with a nod]
Lucy
[thinks to herself]
Just tell him...oh my God it's not hard. Just freakin get a hold of yourself and SAY IT! i mean c'mon what's the worst thing that could happen? OH YEAH he could leave me! [frustrated] great now were back at square one.
[ Lucy is still muttering to herself as she re-enters the room]
Ricardo
[looks at her with a stupid look]
[ Lucy is still muttering to herself as she re-enters the room]
Ricardo
[looks at her with a stupid look]
What the hell is up with you? I wouldn't talk to you so now you are talking to yourself?
Lucy
[freaks out]
I don't freakin know okay, why is everyone giving me the 3rd degree?
[freaks out]
I don't freakin know okay, why is everyone giving me the 3rd degree?
Ricardo
[gauges his eyes]
[gauges his eyes]
Dang! what the hell? Are you PMSing or something? Cause it's really annoying go take a freakin midol or whatever you do and get over it cause im not in the mood.
Lucy
[gasps as if disrespected]
[gasps as if disrespected]
WOW! You don't get it do you? Your such a dildo, hard and stubborn. If you knew me at all you would know what was wrong.
Ricardo
[shrugs his shoulders]
[shrugs his shoulders]
Oh my all that is holy. You really are all about the whole element of suprise aren't you. like it would be too hard to just tell me. [huffs] chicks...
Lucy
[livid]
oh right, cause everything has to revolve around you and your penis consumed brain!
oh right, cause everything has to revolve around you and your penis consumed brain!
Ricardo
[stares at Lucy with disbelief]
[stares at Lucy with disbelief]
That's totally uncalled for. See that thing poking out of your ass? yeah, it's called a stick. Pull it out and lose the attitude. Or....just...go home or something.
Lucy
[stares at him with fire in her eyes and shouts]
[stares at him with fire in her eyes and shouts]
ARE YOU SERIOUS! you're really about to make jokes right now?...{silence}...it would be like you to run away from your problems.
[eyes swell with tears and whispers]
i never should have slept with you...
Ricardo
[confused, makes a face of bewilderment]
[confused, makes a face of bewilderment]
...what?
Lucy
[shouts]
[shouts]
I said i never should have slept with you!! there, ya happy?
Ricardo
[sits back and ponders]
[sits back and ponders]
Are you serious?...well your the one that wanted to. Anyways how does that have anything to do with your crazy mood swings all of a...
Lucy
[blurts out]
[blurts out]
I'M PREGNANT!!
[Ricardo's eyes bulged at the word and his jaw drops. He has trouble even remembering to breath. utter shock. Lucy however shows a look of waiting for approval and relief]
Ricardo
[has trouble finding words]
Ricardo
[has trouble finding words]
w...um...huh?...well...are you sure?...i mean...damnit Lucy!
Lucy
[appalled]
[appalled]
are you kidding me you act like i got on top of myself and got pregnant!!
[silence]
Ricardo
[quietly]
Ricardo
[quietly]
..how did this happen..?
Lucy
[replies in a snide way]
[replies in a snide way]
well...boy meets girl. Boy likes girl. boy and girl get busy. put it in the oven and what have you got? A PREGGO EGGO!
Ricardo
[starts to get upset]
this isn't a time to be funny!...
Lucy
[smiles]
[smiles]
well...since I got myself into this shinanigan, I fugure it's all I really got left.
Ricardo
[scoots over and gives her a hug and kisses her on the forehead]
[scoots over and gives her a hug and kisses her on the forehead]
i will always be here
Lucy
[starts to cry]
[starts to cry]
Good, cause I'm scared sh**less.
Ricardo
[holding on to Lucy as if it's his only way of holding on to reality and not losing himself in the insanity surrounding him]
[holding on to Lucy as if it's his only way of holding on to reality and not losing himself in the insanity surrounding him]
I don't know if i ever told you this...but...ugh
Lucy
[Interrupts]
[Interrupts]
what?
Ricardo
[tries to re-gain his train of thought]
[tries to re-gain his train of thought]
I...well. This is really hard for me to say...so...well here it goes.
Lucy
[look at him attentively hanging on his every word]
[look at him attentively hanging on his every word]
it's o.k just try
Ricardo
[hesitant]
[hesitant]
I...I...I think I love you
Lucy
[smiles from ear to ear beaming with joy]
[smiles from ear to ear beaming with joy]
...I love you too.
Ricardo
[sigh of relief]
[sigh of relief]
so you don't think it's weird.
Lucy
Oh God no. i mean i think you should [ giggle] I'm your babies momma.
[ the lights go out and move to a different part of the stage. Lights come back on and are focused on Ricardo and Lucy in the basement many years later pointing a a picture they found]
Ricardo
[smiles]
Ricardo
[smiles]
Can you believe how young we were?
Lucy
[reminisce]
[reminisce]
i know it still feels like yesterday. Maybe it's because i tell the story better. [smiles]
Ricardo
[wobbles up of the couch and goes in the kitchen and turns to where he carved her name "i love Lucy"]
[wobbles up of the couch and goes in the kitchen and turns to where he carved her name "i love Lucy"]
I'll always be here
Lucy
no you won't i might get a few more years out of you at best. [both giggle, Ricardo leans over and kisses Lucy]
[Jonny (their 6 year old son) runs into the room and jumps on their laps and shows them something he made]
~THE END~
~THE END~
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
whateve
O-M-G look at her butt it's like so big....omg i know it looks like she ate a midget. ick what is she wearing. i don't know what died. ....i wish my butt looked like that... i know she looks like some rapper chicks girlfriend. but it's no big thing but a chicken wing....ugh whateve
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