Him (second version)

his face
my life sitting in front of me
tears running downmy heart exploding with pain waiting to burst out of my chest
I wanted to take it all back
But no
I was done,
Done trying to contemplate the agony that I exposed myself to everyday
I finally realized I was worth it
and I did it
I said good-bye to broken promises and forever’s that never meant anything
just your way to feel more secure about yourself
Like a band-aid covering up what you knew was there but didn’t have the heart to face
Lying to the one you called your all
Scared, unsure, and ready
freedom never felt so good
finally being surrounded by the one who meant it when they said"I love you" or
"I will always be here for you"
that was the day
the day I realized
my mother was right
She saw right threw you like crystal
The reflection of your ways mimicked those of her past
Her protection fell over me
I never thought it possible
Trust being broken
My pride being torn from my chest
Labeled
Petrified
but that's life
unpredictable and mind boggling
many people always said
"You'll understand when you’re older"
but that summer
That hot, heart wrenching summer
Like a boy with sweat on his brow
Quickly whipped away
Disappeared
Forgotten
life changed in a blink of an eye
unknowingly
I was strong
brave
yet I'm so thankful
I hate him for what he did to me
but love him for who I am now

For the day my life changed.